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Post by lazario on Jun 30, 2008 3:50:18 GMT -5
Nope. It's very hard to find an available, attractive, sensitive gay man who is also enough of the other things I'm looking for. Plus remember that I've already admitted I had a rough time in school, had big self esteem issues because I was overweight when I was young and tried to commit suicide several times in high school, was insecure following my "recovery" of all my big problems, I came from a small town, and it was hard to make real friends. Then, I don't drink alcohol, so I don't go out to bars. Plus, I don't like crowds. I don't have the money to really travel, so I haven't toured any famous big cities. And then, remember also: I'm a horror geek. I have a passion for it. I've kind of devoted a lot of my spare time to it.
As strange as it must be to hear this - I'm okay with who I am. It took me a fucking long time to get here, but I'm fine. And if I die from any of the things "the majority of Americans" fear will wipe us all out (terrorism, Anthrax, AIDS, black people, Atheists, "Hollywood," natural disasters, drugs, poverty) - I've had oral sex. I've never been "cheated" on, and I've dated before. I'll die happy enough. Because I know what I want and if I don't get it, fine. I can't make the world change to suit my desires and wants and I have dealt with that.
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Post by shunty on Jun 30, 2008 11:42:06 GMT -5
That is interesting. I can't really relate to any of it, but it is interesting. One thing that i do find hard to have in common with people is, like you said, being a horror geek. Does that ever make you feel a little bit isolated when it comes to friends?
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Post by lazario on Jun 30, 2008 11:49:28 GMT -5
Not really. Most of my friends like at least some horror films. Just not, perhaps, ones like The Evil Dead and Fulci's films and such.
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Post by tsmooth31 on Jul 1, 2008 2:37:13 GMT -5
well i can kind of see where you are coming from, i mean i would imagine it is much harder for a gay male to find another gay guy then it is for a straight guy to find a girl, i like you never really had a hard time in highschool but i didnt have many friends simply because i was a loner but that was my choice i just liked to be alone, i dont care to drink either and hate bars, i also hate crowds of people, i love just being alone by myself or with my girl and of course none of my friends are into the low budget horror that im into, i watch them with my girl sometimes and she pretends to like them but only because she loves me ;D... if you are ok with who you are thats all that really matters, since we are actually having areal convo now i will tell you that i am nowhere near the asshole you think i am, like i said i basically stay to myself so i dont really have any probs with anyone, i mean im not gonna lie i dont care about many people but its not like i hate them like you make it out to be i just simply dont care about them at all, really im not a hard guy to get along with at all you are one of the only people on the net or in real life that has had such a hard time getting along with me, and that is very simple to fix, just respect mine and everyone elses opinions here, its really that easy
as for finding a gay guy, you gotta go to myspace for that, might sound a little cheesy but im tellin you when i had mine i met a few girls on there, plus i had this gay guy who i worked with and was kinda friendly with and he had tons of gay guys he met on there, actually think he ened up meeting up with some1 on there, not sure how it went tho cuz i dont talk to him anymore, but it works!!!
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Post by lazario on Jul 1, 2008 5:16:39 GMT -5
well i can kind of see where you are coming from, i mean i would imagine it is much harder for a gay male to find another gay guy then it is for a straight guy to find a girl It's one of those - all the good ones are taken - kind of things. none of my friends are into the low budget horror that im into I made my best friend watch some of the movies I liked. She liked the ultra-gory Dead Dudes in the House right away. Then, when I was really freaked out by Frostbiter: Wrath of the Wendigo (hey, it was 1996, a longer time ago- lay off!!), she was totally calm and didn't want me to turn it off when I did (about 40 minutes in) because I couldn't take anymore (I was shaking like a leaf!). So, I'd like to think I changed a few people's lives. Made them a lot more receptive to the low-budget experience. And that was Troma, so it's more like no-budget. As for these days... People are so damn inured to all this big-budget studio crap, that it practically "depresses" them to watch something on a smaller budget. It's too foreign to them. And it's just going to stay that way. So, thank God for DVD, but soon the majors will take over that too, the smaller companies will be gobbled up, and when we're all dead and gone, the movies we had on DVD won't be compatible with everyone's HD or Blu-Ray (whatever new updates come in the future, so that all old discs don't play - you know it will happen, another way those companies get us to spend money) players, so they'll never see the older and low budget movies anyway. i am nowhere near the asshole you think i am I know. When I call you a piece of shit, I'm really just telling you that only A Piece of Shit person would say something like that. I know you talk a lot without thinking your words through. Sometimes, we all do. its not like i hate them like you make it out to be And like I tell you, it's about what you say. Think whatever you want. But don't say hateful things like you do, or else there's going to be a problem. That's the way the world works. There are very FEW places where being a hateful person is okay and accepted. Just fucking look at the Republican Party. They won't say out loud that they hate gay people and will die before we ever are allowed to marry. Because they know American Citizens Don't Tolerate Hate-Speech except in our heads and the privacy of our KKK / NRA meetings. We have evolved a little bit - black people have more rights than they used to, so do women. And the reason why? Why do you think that is?? It's because people know that, hating / saying hateful things / discriminating against people, based on appearence or orientation is wrong! Yeah we're still uptight about a lot of things. Yeah men are still threatened when women have power over them, and etc(.) with blacks over whites, and when the gay population or perspective is seen as superior to the concerns of the heterosexuals. But we can deal with it when our culture is not spreading messages of intolerance and apathy. Bottom line - you need to care as much as I do about saying sick and hateful things. Because the reason you have the right to keep people from hurting you is the same reason you don't have the right to hurt others. No one has the right to control someone else's life. And you need to know right now, your using these words is trying to destroy someone's life or control over their life. That's what it is. That's the way it is. It's not going to change because you say you mean it another way. These are words that always mean harm. No matter how you think you're using them. just respect mine and everyone elses opinions here, its really that easy Just recognize that You Would Not Say Things Like That if you were in the position of someone who has to deal with hate all the time. Your asking me to respect your opinions, when some of your opinions include really ignorant and hateful things - Is Like Asking Me to respect a person who attacks me and people who are in a bad way - In a bad place because of people like you. People who say hateful things and don't care about the consequences. That is not okay. I cannot respect that AND I do not have to. You need to know in the world we're living in - the damage that hate does. In all forms. And then you need to stop spreading hate. So right now, once and for all - don't say something hateful, unless you have a reason to. Don't say it just because you think it. There are a lot of things we think that we don't say and we know why. Because it's dangerous and/or, not wise to do so. I'm dead serious. Think about it right now! All the things you think that you do not say. I'm sure you'll realize there are a hell of a whole lot.
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Post by tsmooth31 on Jul 1, 2008 16:23:24 GMT -5
see the difference is you see things as hate that arent, i dont hate any1 i dont know, i just simply dont care about them... i called roseanne fat and ugly, thats not hate its just what i think she is and i have every right to say that, i wasnt hating on her, i actually have more respect for her then i do some skinny ugly fake models, instead of going crazy all you have to do is ask me why i think something or to explain myself more and i will try to do my best, i give roseanee respect for being happy about who she is, but that doesnt change the fact i think shes fat and ugly, that really isnt hate tho
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Post by lazario on Jul 2, 2008 2:41:23 GMT -5
see the difference is you see things as hate that arent You call someone you don't know vicious attacking names... And you don't think that is hate? What is it, then? i have every right to say that You have no right to attack people who don't attack you first. Those words are attacks. That's the way it is. It's not going to change because you wish things were different. i actually have more respect for her then i do some skinny ugly fake models Well you have a fucked up way of showing it. I would get my head right about this if I were you.
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Post by tsmooth31 on Jul 2, 2008 4:05:59 GMT -5
You call someone you don't know vicious attacking names... And you don't think that is hate?
What is it, then?
i call it the truth, its how i feel and im not afraid to say it
i will always say whats on my mind i dont care what others think, if i think some1 is fat, ugly, stupid, a whore whatever it might ne i will say it. its not hate because for it to be hate i would actually have to have something against them, because a person eats to much and gets fat and then i call the, fat is hate?? gimme a fucking break that is called the truth and i will always speak whats on my mind, learn to deal with it oryou will get into alot of pointless arguments with me
like i said i respect roseanne for doing a show and being proud of who she is and not trying to starve herself and get some fake titties to look like some disgusting model, doesnt change the fact i think she is fat and ugly tho, see laz its far from hate
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Post by lazario on Jul 2, 2008 5:39:02 GMT -5
I call it the truth, its how i feel and im not afraid to say it T - nobody cares about "your" version of the truth. And it's tainted by a nasty judgmental person underneath. You clearly do have problems if you can say things like that and think you're tough for doing so. What makes you qualified to judge these people? Did you think about that before you shared your "truth" with everyone? Why do you care about the way someone looks if you're not that person? Why are you content in sticking your nose in people's business when those people aren't doing anything to you? I think this might be proof positive that you're the one making things into competitions. Why else would you bother to point out how others are different from you - in a clearly derogatory way? Seriously, mind yourself every now and then. And leave other people alone. Because they didn't attack you first. And if they did, you'd actually have a reason to attack them. But as usual, what makes sense for you to do is never the case of what you're actually doing. if i think some1 is fat, ugly, stupid, a whore whatever it might ne i will say it. its not hate because for it to be hate i would actually have to have something against them I don't give a fuck what you think. Most thoughts are meant to be kept private or shared with specific people. People are not meant to say every fucking thing they think of. Because we value privacy. And regardless of what you do think, these people you attack have every right to be in public. Even more than you, because you attack people who don't attack you first. You can't make up some fucking excuse like just because they're overweight or because you're thinking too much about their sex life, that that gives you the right to judge them. Seriously, you never ask yourself - who cares what you think? You should. And T, I've already explained, very well - when you contribute hateful comments (and the words are clearly hateful) to a climate of intense hatred, it doesn't matter what you mean - it is still hate. Just because you try to dress up your sheep in wolf's clothing, T - it's still a sheep. a person eats too much and gets fat and then i call the, fat is hate?? gimme a fucking break that is called the truth You wish, T. That's because you're a desensitized, insensitive person who wants to get away with some form of attacking people because of issues you have. You can defend your behavior all you want. But again, you can't change something by putting a coat over it. It is what it is. It's hate, plain and simple. THE FACT that you think you have the right to attack people who don't attack you proves that you hate. You can say you don't have anything against them - but if you don't, why the fuck do you say it? What makes you think you "have to" tell the "truth" as you think you see it? What the fuck makes you think you know everything? T, you're the one who has something to learn. Not me.
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Post by tsmooth31 on Jul 2, 2008 18:38:17 GMT -5
ok so you say nobody cares about your my version of the truth and you dont give a fuck what i think, well you know what, nobody cares about your version of the truth and i dont give a fuck what you think, so instead of rambling on and on about nothing why not just end it
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Post by lazario on Jul 3, 2008 3:03:15 GMT -5
That's up to you, dumbass. Stop defending your choice to spread hatred. And quit pretending that just because you want something to be true that it automatically is.
I guess that means- stop being yourself. Too bad, we'll all miss the old you (NOT!)
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Post by tsmooth31 on Jul 3, 2008 5:32:31 GMT -5
i will never change, im always gonna say whats on my mind and what i think about people, i could care less what you or anyone else in the world thinks, if your warped mind wants to call it hate then call it hate, and you know what if i really wanted to hate on people i have every right because i live in a free country, i have the right to feel, say and think what i want about people
you are just so used to people hating and making fun of you because you were fat and are gay that your mind has become so warped and anytime any1 say something that you think is negative yo sscream out racism and hate, your brain is broken and there is nothing in this world that can fix it
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Post by lazario on Jul 3, 2008 13:11:18 GMT -5
Hey, it's your soul in question here, not mine. My conscience is clean. I'm a good person. I don't give a fuck what other people look like, their problems are their lives - AND I'M NOT SUCH A PIECE OF SHIT THAT I SPEND MY TIME JUDGING THEM, ATTACKING THEM, OR EVEN THINKING ABOUT WHAT'S GOING ON WITH THEM. You are such a loser for going on and on about how you want to talk about a bunch of other people you don't know. Do you even have your own life?if your warped mind wants to call it hate then call it hate You're the one with the warped mind. You think you have the right to attack people who haven't attacked you first. Hello- is your brain working? In the Real World, we have a thing called " an eye for an eye." When you do something bad to someone, they have to deserve it. The same goes with words. If you attack people for no good reason, you are a complete loser with a pervert mentality. Only perverts or schizophrenics think they have the right to do whatever they want to to people - just because you've got an inch, doesn't mean you can use anyone you want to scratch it - you sick loser. A sick or severely damaged person thinks they can do anything they want to. That's the same thing as what you're doing. There's a very thin line between words and actions. Don't think it doesn't mean anything for you to keep defending this action of yours - it definitely says something is really wrong with you. you know what if i really wanted to hate on people i have every right because i live in a free country You really don't understand the concept of a free country. The reason we have freedom is because we observe courtesies. Like keeping our bullshit opinions to ourselves unless we're attacked first. You're a retard if you don't get that. You must have been raised by apes. You seem to think there are no rules in a free country. That is not true. you are just so used to people hating and making fun of you because you were fat and are gay that your mind has become so warped and anytime any1 say something that you think is negative you scream out racism and hate, your brain is broken and there is nothing in this world that can fix it You wish that that were the truth.
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Post by tsmooth31 on Jul 3, 2008 19:10:58 GMT -5
blah bla blah stop preaching your same tired shit, no1 cares about it or wants to hear it
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Post by lazario on Jul 4, 2008 4:50:47 GMT -5
Actually - that's you, T. Because people are sick of hate. And they don't think just because you have something hateful to say that everyone needs to hear it.
And you're delusional because you think you have the right to attack everyone just because "you feel like it."
GET A LIFE, you fucking loser! Stop talking about everyone else like they care.
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Post by tsmooth31 on Jul 4, 2008 6:07:12 GMT -5
ill talk however i want, if any1 doesnt like what i say then they can step to my face if they have a problem, it has never happened and never will happen, i roll to deep baby, but you can keep trying to talk trash over the comp if it makes you feel better
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Post by lazario on Jul 4, 2008 6:10:44 GMT -5
And that's why you're a loser. You don't think. And you waste everyone's time. Nobody cares what you think, you moron. if any1 doesnt like what i say then they can step to my face Again - hypocrite, T. You call other people tough-guys, yet... What are you saying? You want people to physically challenge you. Not only do you think you're a tough guy, but again- you turn everything into a competition. you can keep trying to talk trash over the comp T, I'm not using hateful slurs about people who haven't attacked me first. That's you.
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Post by tsmooth31 on Jul 4, 2008 6:13:58 GMT -5
i dont think im tough, you just keep going on and on, no1 has ever had a prob with what i said because they know better, its easy to talk tough over the comp, if you were right infront of my face you wouldnt say a word
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Post by lazario on Jul 4, 2008 6:18:44 GMT -5
T - you are a hypocrite and a loser. These are facts. Call them "tough" if you want.
But I've already explained. If by "tough" you mean I'm a better person - yes.
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Post by tsmooth31 on Jul 4, 2008 6:20:35 GMT -5
haha a better person
you are a miserable sad little boy with no love in your life, i dont even have to call you any names anymore i feel to bad for you, its like making fn of some1 in the special olympics
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